most of these are at least two years old.

( congrats, you're no longer a pedophile. )

i feel as if things couldn't possibly be any worse.

another picture post -______-

( a priest is rushing to my side, begins to read me my last rights. father youre too late, my faith is weak )

HAAAAAAAAY, part five of picture post!

( won't you take me to... )

FUCK BRO,
i'm tired of posting pictures.
next time.
BUT FOR NOW,
let's take a survey, shall i?
yes.
thanks vicky&emma :)


Is the last person you kissed also the next person you'll kiss?
definitely!


Have you ever liked someone older than you?
yes.
however, at the moment, i LOVE someone older than me.
n_n


Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
LOL to the power of two.
parents?
good relationship?
HAH!


Think of the person who's hurt you the most...
...and?


Do you believe ex's can be friends?
probably.
it's never worked that way for me though.


Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
YES!


Have you ever been a gymnast or a cheerleader?
no


Will you talk to the person you like/love on the phone tonight?
hopefully!


What woke you up this morning?
my alarm -_______________-


What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
-starting beauty school
-ending high school
-halloween
-my birthday
-the holidays
-seeing hector

Has anyone ever told you they want to spend the rest of their life with you?
yes.


Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
already have


Would you ever donate blood?
yes


At what age do you plan on having kids?
never


Ditched school to do something more fun?
yes


Do you take compliments well?
not at all.


Has a boy/girl ever called you babe/baby?
yes


Does anyone hate you?
probably.
oh, wait, yes.


Do you like to make the first move?
no


Do you miss anyone?
yes!


Does anyone love you?
yes n_n


What are you doing tomorrow?
working from 12-7


Are you easily confused?
sometimes.


Do you fall for people easily?
no.
i do trip easily, but never fall.


Are you high maintinence?
probably.
i'm just a bitch like that.


Are you happy with the way life is going?
yes


When was the last time you felt like your heart was actually breaking?
hm...thankfully i don't think i've ever felt it that bad.
BUT, the closest thing was back when me and hector were first first first "dating"...about two years ago and he was like 'look, i've got a job now...i don't think i'll have time for this anymore'
OUCH.
but it worked in the long run, right? :D


Looking forward to something this weekend?
hector.
&HOPEFULLY i'll get him to come to the tattoo expo with me.


Do you hate it when people smoke around you?
depends what they're smoking.


In the past week have you cried?
yes -____-


Is there someone you will never forget?
yes.


Where’s the guy/girl you like/love right now?
at work.


Is any part of your body sore?
nope


Last thing you ate?
ensalada


Who was the last person you laid in a bed with?
hector<3


Are you a morning person or a night person?
both.


How do you feel about public displays of affection?
i'm fine with them :)
as long as it's not like...fucking in public.


What did you do last night?
watched 'the covenant' no...shit...i forget what it was called. but hector&i watched a movie about these witch girls from like the eighties, and made stuffed bumble bees. they're cute, we gave them to my mom though :c


What always makes you feel better when you are upset?
hector<3


Who was the last person you called?
moms


Are you smiling?
no


How are you right this second?
happy and excited.


Do you like to take walks?
not alone :/


Will your next kiss be a mistake?
no


Have you ever made out on a boat?
no.
shit, i've never even been on a boat.
i think.
oh wait, i take that back.
once.
a sailboat!


Have you ever injected a drug?
no


Look to your right, what is there?
hector's bass, my pants, my bed, etc. etc.


Have any piercings or tattoos?
4ears 1septum


Do you fight with your grandparents often?
no, they aren't alive.


Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
warped :)


Have you ever been in a car accident?
yes. lol.


Do you have to check in with your parents before you go some place?
yes -______-
it's hellof annoying.
man, i went to the side gate to put bottles in the recycling and my mom followed me asking 'WHERE ARE YOU GOING?!'
...wtf, are you serious?


What bed did you sleep in last night?
mine


Are you happy right now?
yes


Who did you say 'I love you' to last?
hector<3


Would you rather have big or small dogs?
ANY!


Do you mind being cold?
love it!


What is your favorite candy?
cupcakes.


Do you trust all of your friend(s)?
no


Are you afraid of falling in love?
no


Who was your last text from?
hector<3


Where was your default picture taken?
um................warped tour, i think.


Whats your middle name?
don't worry about it sucka!


your relationship status?
taken<3


Have you ever lost a close friend?
not to death.


What is your current mood?
happy.


Whats one of your sisters name?
i don't have any.


What' s your favorite color?
purple

If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
idk.
the butterfly effect makes me want to say no.
MAN, i want that movie.


Have a crazy side?
no, i'm hella calm.
-_____-


Ever had a near death experience?
yes


Who did you last video call with?
what?


Angry at anyone?
yes


What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
nothing, i'm with him.


Who would you do anything for?
hector, mauricio, and tam.


Are you happy with your life?
yes


Do you wish someone dead?
yes.


Is there someone that you will never stop loving?
my mother


What kind of phone do you have?
ghetro


Ever been in a fist fight?
yes


Have you kissed someone In the past week?
yes


Do you speak any other languages?
ESPANOL


Describe your life in one word.
exhilerating


What's your favorite food?
watermelon


What are you thinking of right now?
i wanna go watch tv and eat fruit


What should you be doing right now?
nothing in particular.
just chillaxin.


Who are you thinking of right now?
hector


Who was the last person who yelled at you?
moms


Do you act differently around the person you like?
of course, you're not gonna act all cudley and lovey dovey around just anyone.


What is your natural hair color?
duh, platinum XD
nah, some kinda brown.



Who was the last person to make you smile?
i think melissa.
NO!
actually, this survey.




So far this summer, have you:


Had sex more than 25 times?
-_____________________________-
i dont think anyone should honestly answer this question.


Told someone you love them?
yes


Got super hyper?
probably


Gone over the speed limit?
i dont drive


Did something you shouldn't have?
yes


Hung out with more than five people?
yes


Drank a summer night away?
yes



Been to the beach?
yes



Got a new piercing?
no


Made money?
HAAAAAAAAAAAAY, hell yee!
i have over 1000 COUNT THE ZEROS in my savings account.
BRO, I'VE NEVER HAD OVER ONE HUNDRED!
this feels AMAZINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG


Stayed up all night?
yes


Went shopping?
kinda.


Read a book?
no :C
WAIT, YES I HAVE


Punched someone?
yes


Been out of state?
no


Went swimming?
nope


Asked someone out?
nope


Lost someone close?
yes, gramps.



Slept in someone else's bed?
yes


Had someone sleep in your bed?
yes



Been to a club?
nope.
well, actually, technically yes.



Been involved with the cops?
nope



Regret Something?
nope


Licked something?
yep


Been camping?
nope


Got in a fight?
yes


Stayed in a hotel?
nope


Almost die?
yes


Met a celebrity?
uh, kinda.



Ok, for summer ''08
remember all you've done
then answer all these​ quest​ions truth​fully​!​

Cried​?​
yes

Wanted someone you could​n'​t have?​
no

Gotten arrested?
no

Had someone flirt with you or ask you out?
yes

Gotten car with a stranger?
no

Moved​ out from home?​
i wish

Been grounded?
no, i dont get grounded

Ran?
i think.
only for the bus.

Skinny dipped?
no

Gone to a concert?​
yes

Had your heart​ broke​n?​
no

Went to the movie​s?​
um...i actual-oh, hahhahaha, yes, i did.

Had a crush​?​
yes!

Went to a pool?​
nope

Sneak​ out of the house​?​
nope

Kissed more than two people?
helllllllllllllllllllllllllllllZ NA!

( told you there'd be a billion posts. )

in other news, i'm going to a craft fair on sunday!
YAAAAAY<3
i've never been to one before n_____n
julia and i are going to pop indie bikers tires.
w00t.
it should be fun.


but i want to go read now, SO, the rest will be posted...probably starting on wednesday evening.
:)

FATTY PICTURE POST since i am trying to clean out the folders on my computer :)

i usually don't to lj cuts on personal posts, BUT if i didn't it would fuck your page UP. like a pole in a new born's vag.
n_____n
( sooooooo, on with the show! )

one of my godfathers is in the hospital.
the doctors said that he will need 24/7 care for the rest of his life when/if he is released.

a friend of mine has been really sucky to me lately, putting everyone (mainly dudes) ahead of me. bros before hos though, you know? and i always tell her that, but she dismisses it and says 'but...' and that really upsets me. i'm seeing her tomorrow though, and she's sleeping over, so i'll deffinetly be talking to her about it.

my bf...god...where do i even start?
he hasn't been treating me that great lately, and i tell him that and he basically just says i'm jibbin and just being a bitch. [jibbin&bitch are exact words] when i talk to my friends about it, they tell me to break up with him. the hardest thing about the situation is that if i were one of my friends, i would be telling me the same thing. and i would've been telling me that a long long time ago, which is an even harder thing to cope with. today, i got a phone call from him telling me happy valentines day and that he was going to come over but he's getting off late and going to sf instead. how sweet, right? -___- just don't tell me dude... so, i think i'm writing him a letter basically saying what is wrong and that if things don't change i dont think we can be together anymore. i started it a couple nights ago, but i got so emotional i couldn't finish. because i love him to death, but it's just like...i feel it's a one way love. ughhh...and there's so much more but i deffinetly don't feel comfortable discussing it in my lj.

the only really good thing that happened this week was getting fafi, hah, go figure. (it was a new mac line)

























"i haven't been this scared, in a long time. and i'm so unprepared, so here's your valentine."

HAY.
so today is going to be a weird entry, filled with text.
i don't expect anyone to read it n____n
and that's okay with me.


+i took a career test today. apparently i am artist at most, and e...SHIT. i know it started with an e, but whatever. and on the list of jobs that would be good for me, guess what was there? cosmetologist. :D

-i won't be going to apple on friday, but hanging out with my dear friend tiffany instead. which isn't really a minus, but more of a plus minus.

+i got my watercolor class supplies.
well, my brushes, eraser, and two paints -____-
i stole the wrong paints. HAH.

+i got my pschology book

+i CONTROLLED my anger (more on that below)

-i had a friend yell at me for an invalid reason, and she has never yelled at me before. well, if you know me well at all, you know i have a horrible, horrible, horrible temper. i didn't yell, or say anything back. i just sat there quiet. later, i imed her (yeah idc, whatever.) and told her how ridiculous i felt she was being and she agreed and appologized.
HAAAAAAY IM GETTING MATURE!

+i'm picking out my new puppy saturday YAYYY!

-ace is sick :C
she threw up in the house and in the car.
BOOO

isn't ace so cute?!

hmmmmmmmmmm...
that's about all that happened.
but i AM ridiculously excited for some pictures i will soon be taking.
yayaya.

OHOHOH!
and someone messaged me on myspace to do their hair :)
&my friend caleb wished his gf wouldn't have done his hair and that i wouldve.
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY


&BTW,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VICKY!!!!!!!♥

BIGBIGBIG entry.
goddamn this is going to be big.
lots of pictures, lots of writing, etc. etc.
i would actually be extremely surprised if anyone even comments on anything said, since it's so long.

this post will include:
-monster squad's last US show
-jeffree star at the gilman
-justin, julia and alina's trip to japan town
-this weekend's plans
&
-todays ridiculous outburst of anger
&probably some other random things i think of.


( so here we go! )


-i'm REALLY excited because i'm doing makeup for another fashion show on saturday, YAY! the same guy is asking me to do it :)
-i did caleb's hair yesterday, AND OH MAN ITS SOOOOOOOO CUTE!
-i might be getting suspended for school for slapping someone
-BRI CHEESE IS THE BEST EVERRRRR

i am SO sick and TIRED of shitty friends.
im TIRED of being let down
im TIRED of being ditched
im TIRED of being fifth or sixth or, fuck, fiftieth best
im TIRED of everyone thinking about themselves before anyone elses feelings.

fuck, is it impossible to be a good friend?
because honestly, i don't know anymore.
i try my best and i think i do a pretty good job, but i deffinetly don't see it reflected upon myself.

ESPECIALLY when i introduce my BEST friends to people, then they get all fucking lovey dovey with them (this more than twice) and then they just end up hanging out all the time. UM, WTF, I'M STILL HERE. REMEMBER ME? YOU'RE OLD BEST FRIEND? im hella just plain tired of people in general.
people need to be more kind and giving and sympathetic and shit.

this is all probably coming from (and hopefully...)PMS. i know i feel like this all the time, but this time it's a straight outburst. i just want to walk out of my house and fight the first person i see. smash their face into the fucking ground until they bleed like crazy, then pull out every single fucking tooth from their mouth to put on a fucking chain. and honey, that's not goddamn all. i would find anything i could to jam into their skin, their skull, ANYWHERE. their armpit, FUCK I JUST WANT TO HURT SOMEONE SO GODDAMN BAD THAT THEY BEG TO STOP. godFUCKING DAMMIT IM TIRED OF BAD FUCKING FREADS. WTF IS IT REALLY THAT HARD TO THINK OF SOMEONE YOU CARE ABOUT??

this is where the part comes in where i think nobody cares.
and i'll tell people that i feel this and they hjust go 'oh, nononono' and everything goes out the other ear because i've heard it so many goddamn times before.

I'M SICK OF BEING DISSAPPOINTED BY THE PEOPLE I LOVE THAT I CARE ABOUT SO MUCH I WOULD DIE FOR THEM. and then they won't even take the time out of THEIR day to fucking drive from milpitas.





WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK.












dear world, i hope you shatter.